Trying to find peace of mind,while my body loses control!

Well its been quite a while since I have posted and a lot had to do with my body and the control that I have lost over it. I know I'm never in control, God is in control, but where is he I'm praying and trying to heal and nothing seems to ease my discomfort. Doctors I myself trust to provide us with the best quality of care and I truely love my physicians but, how can a company and doctor endorse something like this and not realize the life altering affects it has on some of us. Yes some are lucky and have great success with the procedure, which is a TVT or sometimes called a TVT-O.Yet I myself was not one of the lucky ones after my initial hysterectomy and TVT I have experieced almost every symptom in the books, from bladder and yeast infections to abdominal pain, painful urination, and you can forget intercourse..It has affeted our relationship, not that my husband does'nt understand he is the best.We are so emotionally tortured by the symptoms and surgery that we just try to move on and not discuss it as much as possible, but we live it everyday. I'm on my second round of antibotics and am now still having sharp shooting pains after having the revision on the 13th, to remove the mesh ,which was only successful at removing 50 %...Now its a wait and see what happens game my gyn says I should be fine but I'm praying that he is right, because so far I'm not expecting the best.On the 27 th I go for a post op check up and I'm hoping to talk about what I have learn from other woman expericing the same classic problem. Say a prayer please that my body can adjust and I have the best quality of life possible, I mean I'm only 27 and this should'nt be happening. Thanks for your thoughts and prayers...In advance.